Now that the chill of the winter months is safely behind us, it's time to put on our night vision goggles and peer into any dark corners where we may have allowed dust to settle. Look deep within yourself. What do you see? Tell me about it, and don't lie or I'll know.
Think back to the beginning of the year. What did you hope to accomplish? Who did you want to become? Perhaps you have started to doubt yourself and now feel as if you are at the mercy of circumstances which seem desperately random. Fear not, and don't judge yourself too harshly. Your problem is you need to get more fun out of life. Step out into the light and once again allow your eyes to seek out the things you want.
The most powerful acts of transformation begin within, wouldn't you agree? To that end, let us engage in some emotional spring cleaning by way of a little mirror work.
Start by removing your clothes and placing yourself in front of a large reflective surface. Hold your own gaze and do not look away no matter how uncomfortable or difficult this may seem. Now slowly allow your eyes to wander across your face, taking in all of your best features as well as any perceived flaws. When you're ready, take this exploration down to the rest of your body. Acknowledge that a sedentary existence within your winter cocoon may have resulted in you becoming a little big through the hips. Roomy.
Now once again stare into your own eyes, and with a firm and authoritative voice ask yourself one very important question:
"Would you fuck me?"
Quickly, what is the first response that popped into your mind? If you hesitated or answered with anything other than yes, there is work to be done. For you see, if you wouldn't fuck yourself you can't very well expect anybody else to want to fuck you.
Pinpoint the areas of your life where you'd like to enact change. Think big. Think size 14. Perhaps you've always wanted to take up sewing or pursue a fascination with exotic insects. Have you shied away from your dreams because of fear or feelings of unworthiness? Clear away the cobwebs of self-doubt, you know who you are.
Practice mirror work often as you recommit to your goals, and always complete each session by asking yourself the all important question. Regardless of your true feelings, reply with the following powerful affirmation:
"I'd fuck me. I'd fuck me...HARD."
Caterpillar into chrysalis (or pupa), and thence into beauty.
